Above video has nothing to do with BM A/V other than BM being a DL fan.
I was reading that David Lynch book where he says one of the main things one needs to get creative projects done is time. I agree. For some people, making the time to get basic things done is hard to come by. When my kid was born, I was really freaked out I’d never have the time to get my own creative projects off the ground. But that hasn’t been an issue. I finished two movies this year. Basically the stuff that didn’t matter sloughed off like dead skin. I’m more aware of my free time now, so I am better at managing it.
Cutting out stuff that isn’t important is important. One of those things, for me, has been submitting to film festivals. An award winning filmmaker friend told me to never submit to film festivals because they just take your money. At, generally, 35 bucks a pop, it adds up fast. Forget it. If any film festivals feel like programming my work, they know where to find me.
Making the movies is way more important to me than getting them shown in places where there’s already a set vibe and a specific audience expectation. My stuff works best when catching people off guard, not when programmed into a slot around neighbors on display in case study houses. If there was a small room one might walk into right off the street for a brief respite from ad agency proselytism and the financial district slash tenderloin degradation of the human spirit, be served a nice drink and something to nosh on while a BM A/V projects onto a makeshift screen, that would be a preferable screening environment for my work.
Irina and I have been doing PUFF for the last two years. We had a mission to expose the masses to no budget underground filmmaking and to establish it as a viable and powerful art form. But no one comes out. None of the local papers publicize it. The Hollywood asked me to stay away from screening the things I think need to be screened because nobody comes out to see them and they make no money. This news came to me in a typically Portland fashion – not directly from theater management, but through my screening partner who, today, continues the series we started together, showing esoteric and rare works from his impressive 16mm and 35mm collection.
If making films weren’t so important to me, then I’d keep pounding away at the walls set up by the local cultural arbiters. I’m a ram, man. But there’s better use for my time. Getting three people to show up for an amazing night of underground films from Spain is not nearly as satisfying as finishing a new movie. I quit. Making movies is the thing for me. It has been like that for the last 30 years and it will continue to be forever and always.
I am here to spill my guts for you and show what it means to be a living human being. The beauty. The horror. The muck in between like the psychic and spiritual upheavals, shifts, eruptions, and crashings of the human experience. I believe in the B picture. The underdog. The fool. I tear into the festering sores of my psyche with a candy cane laser, shakily serving comic effect in broken shards of sweet tooth sincerity cauterized in the bubbling boil of vitriolic irony. If nobody wants to see it, I don’t care. I’m not doing this to be famous. That is not my sickness. I am doing this to keep something I love – the art of motion pictures – alive and well. I am winning and it feels good.
“You Think I Ain’t Worth a Dollar, But I Feel Like a Millionaire” the above video has nothing to do with BM A/V other than BM being a QOTSA fan and digging the sentiment of the title and how it pertains to this entry.